| please dont |
[Jun. 12th, 2004|04:31 pm] |
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well, its the second week of summer and ive managed to screw up already so i dont know how swell everything is going to work out. theres somethings that you wish you could have back the way they were because you dont realize what you really had but then again it wasnt me or was it i dont know that either. maybe what i do is stupid maybe i shouldnt do it anymore but i still do..i need somebody whose going to me down for me through thick and thin. *missy has already been taken away from me. somebody please come into my life. and take a seat...stay for a while. |
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| its sad |
[Apr. 23rd, 2004|04:26 pm] |
we always say oh my life will be so much better once the weekend comes once summer comes or when i have the perfect boyfriend but you have to realize this school year is almost over and we have to live life now to the fullest. so just smile, and be happy to be in the present.
its amazing how quickly life passes you by.......... |
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| nitas entry. |
[Apr. 9th, 2004|11:55 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | love song for you. | ] |
this is a whole entry dedicated. to the lover in me. the lover in you. the lover in everybody. nita malaj is one of her kind. everything about her sparkles n shines. like barbies new corvette after she gets it washed.. shes just amazing. we are going to travel together. be together all the time. in the summmmer. no doubt in my mind its going to be fun. garunteed. just having plain old fun with bestie nita. it will be great just i cant even think of the words to explain what i feel for her its so strong. we made a promise. and i will keep it. forever and always. ill be there. whatever you neeeeeed. ill be there. for better or for worse. in sickness and in health in weakness and in strength. i take you to be my lawfully wedded best friend. i love you. |
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| waiting |
[Apr. 9th, 2004|11:18 pm] |
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have you ever loved somebody so much you cant sleep at night.... have you everrrr...ooooo have you ever. haha sorry its a good love song. but since im definitly not in a loving mood im going to delete that mental song. so anyways me and nita got hair done today..nitas of course looks grand and hot. mine i dont mind but i mean... i want to go back dark asap. lol according to michael i have 28 more days to wear braces. see im sort of confused on who is more excited him or i. its ok though. shabbat shalom hey. tonight was another experience. um. im reallly kind of irritated. flustered. annoyed. but on the other hand im infatuated. love ( i know that isnt the right form of the word to use but i dont mind at all) i am also at peace and very calm thinking about things in general. some things get more specific at times but im drifting. close. far. out of my mind for him. |
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| look what we have herre. |
[Apr. 8th, 2004|01:45 pm] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
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| | fuck her gently- tenacious d | ] |
well see the thing is nevermind then i went to see joey yesterdayyyyy we went to the store and then came back and ummm played basketball. i of course was the best then um we went to dinner with big joey and little sydney!! it was really good. then we came back and jumped on the non olympic size trampoline.. then ryan came over and jumped on the tramp as well. then we listened to fuck her gently what a classic song. i love jack black. anyways then i left. went home little bit later david came over brought tons of movies and left them all here wehen he left shortly there after. ha. uh oh mom wasnt in a good mood. but me and nita and stuart stayed up until 2 just talking to our computer friends lol quite amusing when theres nothing better to do! haha then i went to bed and when i woke up my mom asked me where i went last night when i didnt go anywhere.. haha but she believed me so its good..so now i dont have anything to do bored out of my mind ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. help me? |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 4th, 2004|11:22 pm] |
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im having a hard time very hard time and i wish i could just fuck what happened before and start over fresh and new and meet somebody for the very first time, and realize how incredible it REALLY is to love somebody i mean people throw this around like whatever no big deal and i dont want to be like that at all. i really want to know if i feel it. but im also scared because i dont know what will happen after its done. maybe ill walk out and not feel a thing better then being with that one person my whole life. |
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| SOOoo money |
[Apr. 4th, 2004|12:03 pm] |
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ha how awesome was last night? pretty cool i think.. got to chases bar mitzvah at umm 10 rachel was waiting for me gesus i love her. we settled down mingled for a bit watched the really cool movie and drummers with weird clothes..jordan was our drink supplier. very nice of him. love him too. somebody was like so out of it no names here but umm me and rachel werent minding at all i guess....ha. it was awesome. dancing with everybody... my mom..? lol we won back massagers for getting up on stage for like a second!! it was sooo cool. but umm yeah there was a loungue and what not which was cool but it was more like a smoker room.. and we met new people. like brad friedmans brother? haha odd! lot of brothers.. me and rachel have come in contact with over the times. anyways we leave at like 2 and come home. talk look at pictures of gorgeous people.. eating soup and then go to bed finally at 5. woke up at 10.. who does that?! and really it was only 9... gesus. ha now im all alone its 12 and im gone. |
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| TOnight is THE NIGHT |
[Apr. 2nd, 2004|10:22 pm] |
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| | indifferent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | pool party- marykate and ashley | ] |
this past week has been really really hectic..not i barely do anything i want to get out more honestly!! andrewww brought me a slurpee!! ha thanks hun. then i watched the texas chainsaw massecur? ha sorrrta scary!! i bumped into nates head.sorry but um then wednesday tv night!! this week only oc though because SOMEBODY had to go and be a loser and go home before south park and chappelle show. ha thursday i did absolutley nothing until 7 when i went to matthews house, my special friend* to play games. then mommy picked me up and let me drive to meijer. where i got alot of cool stuff!! and we saw ronnie. dads neighbor.. i think hes attractive. then there were the vanilla chocolate girls.. classic. cool mom cool. thenn we went to BK, nd then i came home... and talked to allie on the phone. while he was too busy looking like the hottness in his black jacket glasses and backwards hat. haha well then i went to sleep i suppose. today i woke at 11 because my mom put jeremiah in my beedddddy. we hung out in TV room for a bit watched marykate and ashley old school movies. like the your invited series.. and then me joshua and jeremiah took a bath together. i played it safe and wore my swimming trunks though!! and then we got ready n went out.. did some errands. mommy got a dress for chases bar mitzvah party tomorrow night where i am going to see rachel shapiro.. man am i like soooo excittteeddd!!!! lol its going to be great.. even though i probably wont be there until like 830 ninerrr. ook joshua is asleep in my bed now grindin his teeth ahhh i cant stand the sound of it lol. im going to go..pece. |
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| Lover GiRL/. |
[Mar. 21st, 2004|05:59 pm] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
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| | really hot- missy elliot | ] |
Well. Friday night i stayed the night at the Rabbi's Classic jewish experience. it was cool thought because i spent some time with Aaron... then saturday.. guessed it stayed in bed till 4pm. then got up ate and spent some time with the family it was Elijahs bday on friday!!!! the big 4... he was sooo excited. but then sat night.. i went to nitas at like 9 and we didnt have 13 the movie so we decided to get trashed like badasses. got home in the wee hours of the night. have no recollection of what happened. then nita freaked me out in bed.. super weird but also... super hot. damn girl. woke up i drove to coney ha yes! and we saw some girls cough that we knew. ummm then we went to borders. those sex books i tell you... very educational. we then went to gap.. and TJ max bought some new UNDERWEAR... i love my pair with cherries... im going to buy more like it hahahahaha well then i came home and im listeing to music... talking.. to myself of course... Angel has a headache. sorry love.
<3 hehe |
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| Well that was BS |
[Mar. 17th, 2004|08:01 pm] |
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| | if your not the one- daniel beddingfield | ] |
ok so today me and neets had this super amazing foolproof plan right or so we thought.. so we got everything put it together it was going to go well but then the 2 biggest losers on the planets messed it up and threw away all our shit away!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrr i cant believe it i mean even my mom was like why the hell did they do that. wow. haha but anyways, i feel sick. i hate this. la la la la so i mean what else nothing really i need to see some movies, i havent seen one in the longeest time anybody up for a marathon this saturday night??? ya? cell me. i got love for my shoes k-swiss. |
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| today in school |
[Mar. 15th, 2004|09:19 pm] |
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| | last train home... what | ] |
well this morning we picked up by bestie nita and then carried on to school. talked about our friend cough cough and how she gets all the guys. wink wink. so then we got to school did our article summaries and what not then hung out and went to a few classes i mean really who does that. but then we ate lunch together again me and nita. and thenn we typed our article summaries and yelled at nate lovett because he is a sick liar...."we just kissed" haha and "she did it" right im sure she shoved your hand down her pants....but who knows maybe she did!! and ok then we went to some more classes. then after schoollll my fatass had to eat and as a result i missed detention!! grrr i missed some quality time with SL. haha and thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn mommy picked up me and *trevor* oh geeze hes great makes me laugh sooo much! haha and then we went to pick up zeek. and thennnn we went to drivers training.then to eat at boston market... fun then we got picked up after my mommy and trevors daddy talked about headaches.. i mean supositories and vomiting i wasnt really paying attention but anyhow we came home and now this is the timmmmmme. just did bio homework chillin i have a doctas appt. tomorrow morning ladies... cool right. i absolutley love it when my pee is like 3 different colors its def like skittles (the rainbow) for some you really bright ones out there, ok im going. <3 |
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| ok |
[Mar. 14th, 2004|11:27 pm] |
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i fucking hate your guts, dont ever come near me again, talk to me, touch me, i never want to hear your voice, i never want to see you, or laugh with you either, forget everything i said because it clearly didnt mean jack shitt. you can burn in hell but i mean.... have a nice day. |
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| My BadasS dayyyy |
[Mar. 14th, 2004|10:04 pm] |
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| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | eamon- fuck what i said | ] |
well i woke up then took my brothers to a birthday partyyyy then my daddy jack took me driving in the homedics parking lot.. first time i did incredible i mean amazing then we went into like some school and subdivision then i got to drivee on a couple main roads with no permit mind you.. and umm ya then i came home and daddy told me i did a really good job. then i came in and was all excited because ____ was coming with me to my uncles for dinner then we can just skip to the part at my house because me telling you that i was really starting to like him doesnt seem to matter anymore. or at least i dont matter to anybody at all i mean i dont know whats going on. but i mean come on you just dont do that kind of stuff alright im sorry. when you tell somebody you wont do something you dont do it. and now im really upset grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr but im not going to say anything stupid or be mean because that would be implying i dont have feelings for him which of course i do still and grrr again because if he doesnt then ill _____ swear to goshhhh ggeeeeeze i hope everythings going to beok because i think im making this into something more then if even was in the first place i mean all we did was talk right and if this is true why do i care so much? because i like him? i dont know. grrrr i do. not that anybody carees. |
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| Tonight its Gay!!! |
[Mar. 13th, 2004|08:47 pm] |
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well ok lets start with my mom definitly not letting me go out, then we can finish with me having nothing to do. this is so stupid right. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i am sitting home hoping my some miraculous miracle that somebody will show up at my door, probably not so you might as well just shoot me now. |
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| Youre Dangerous *Im lovin it* |
[Mar. 13th, 2004|04:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | wrapped up in you= garth brooks | ] |
its saturday the 13th at like 440.. and i am a proud to say i havent even been out of my room yet. last night was shabbat. yes very fun and it got funner once nate came over.. and andy.. at the same time! that was weird lol. andy is the dry cleaner man and also my dads bestfriend (only friend) so my mom hit on nate for a while..told him he looked incredible* the kids jumped on him and elijah blew on his stomach and that was liked alot. but then we just laid down on our seperate couches and told stories about transvestites named John and the giving tree. great story. theres nothing more i can tell about that night really but for me it was just like heaven. and tonighttttt im going to be with my stupid slut nita, who i love honestly sooooooo much and who i couldnt be without. im goin to bring the massage oil and were going to go at it like its our freakn job*!! hehe yes my love. |
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